Saturday I put everything in storage and spent the night at a friend's house.
Sunday I went to church and a movie with friends.
Monday I had the blues.
I took a prayer walk with God on Monday and asked Him why I was feeling down. I mean, I'm about to start this great adventure, and yet I was feeling like I was in over my head.
I can't say I got a huge revelation. I had other things to get done, so I kept moving forward with my “to-do list.”
Then today I realized I didn't schedule rest.
I'm a doer, and I find God lets me feel off when I'm doing too much … when I'm doing in my own strength. It's not like He could move my things for me … so of course, I had to do the moving (with amazing friends I might add).
This week I'm working on the November calendar for Single Matters and trying to wrap up some ministry details before I leave. It dawned on me today that I may not be able to leave on Friday, November 1. And I have to be okay with following the prompting of the Holy Spirit. I mean, that's the whole point of this journey, right?
This may be an area in which God is working on me, too. When I say I'm going to do something, I feel a sense of responsibility to do it. But am I willing to let God come in and show me something different?
“The heart of a man plans his way, but the LORD establishes his steps” (Proverbs 16:9, ESV).
I am reminded of how Peter often spoke up to Jesus and corrected him. That is funny to us, now that we know the whole story. I mean, who would tell Jesus he was wrong? But, how often do we do that to God? Do we say, “Jesus, I know this is the right thing here, so let me take the wheel.”
When we are sent out by God, we need to be sent, not driven by our own agenda or desires.
I guess this is a good first lesson for me to share. The whole experiment is based on His lead, His plans, His purposes. I have some amazing ideas but I may miss His best if I don't stop and rest in Him.
So, I'm planning to leave on November 1. I'm open to God showing me what doesn't need to get done before I leave, or if my plans need to be put aside so he can establish my steps.
I didn't expect to write my first post about a lesson I'm learning (again). What is God saying to you through this?
(Kingdom Expression Experiment started in October 2013.)
